Oh look, another update already. I either go weeks without one, or 10 all of a sudden XD
Just a heads up that I'll probably be pretty quiet or give short replies/comments on here for quite sometime. I know I've told a few people, but as of late I've been kinda all over the place emotion wise. Some days I've gone from really really happy mood, to a very depressed within an hour. A lot of it stems from the stuff I mentioned in the last ranty journal, but also the thing I didn't really elaborate on...which is just family related. Not going to go into great detail, but for quite sometime people have been on edge with each other over stupid things. Another is I've been treated like a kid instead of an adult by my mother, which irritates me and at times does insult. I'm almost 21, and being treated like a kid is beyond annoying (I think most people would feel that way if you all knew exactly what happens and over what things).
With all of that, school is also stressing the crap out of me. All four of my art classes are demanding on both precision and cleanliness of the physical product, but also high concepts as well......which means I have to have just about every detail thought out and have a good and deliberate reason for each decision made. All in all, I'm mentally exhausted. Physically as well. school is like a kid...it's so demanding and makes you miss sleep XD that's probably not helping my emotional unstableness
Another thing that's been taxing on me is it seems like the majority of my friends on here have been pretty down about life as well. Many probably don't know, and I'm not saying this to be haughty or anything, but I'm a pretty empathetic person. I'm also a major worrier, so if something is up, I worry about it. And there's one thing that I for some reason just don't understand. some have been somewhat open to me about things and had some very deep and intense talks with me. It's not that I don't want to help and don't care, it's just, I don't understand why people come to me
of all people. And sometimes I wonder where the words even come from. it's not me, that's for sure LOL. But as of late I feel like I've just been redundant and a broken record. which I apologize for for not being helpful at all and possibly annoying because of it. I didn't say that all to make you guys stop, it's just a heads up. feel free to keep doing that, but I may not have the best replies >,>
On the plus side I have been doing my Inktobers (though I'm a day behind >_>) which has kinda helped that. And one of my classmates is doing the Inktober as well, which has made it super fun. AAAAANNNDDDDD next week we might be doing some that will involve some random characters we've made. I drew this dragon, which ended up being Emile's dragon form. Though she doesn't know all about him (like his pirateness and his human half, etc.), people actually know about that particuar character so to speak. We'll be using Emile, a mullet dude I doodled one day, a demon possessed poodle that belongs to the mullet guy, and a legless scientist (he got his legs ripped off by the poodle LOL). And they're gonna help Emile hit on this lady dragon I made and stuff. Adventures XD
anyway, I think that's all for my endless rambles. hope you all are well <3